Chapter 575 Jiang Ciyou's Emotional Wavering
Chapter 575 Jiang Ciyou's Emotional Wavering
Jiang Ciyou listened to Lu Jingchen's affectionate confession, as if there was a slight current running quietly in her heart, and the layer of ice that had been wrapped in her heart for a long time began to slowly melt. Her eyes were a little blurred, and her thoughts involuntarily drifted back to the days and nights she spent with Lu Jingchen in the past.
I still remember the night when they first met. In the noisy corner of the city, Jiang Ciyou was full of fatigue and despair, and Lu Jingchen was like a beam of light that broke in unexpectedly. It was a seemingly ordinary but destined encounter. Jiang Ciyou was wearing a simple white dress, the hem of the dress swaying gently in the night breeze. She sat alone on a bench on the street, her eyes empty and sad. When Lu Jingchen passed by, he was inadvertently attracted by her lonely silhouette, and stopped for some reason.
"You seem to have a lot on your mind." Lu Jingchen said softly, with a hint of concern in his voice. Jiang Ciyou raised his head slightly, and what came into his eyes were Lu Jingchen's bright and deep eyes. At that moment, time seemed to freeze. Since then, their interactions have gradually increased. Lu Jingchen always appears when Jiang Ciyou needs him most. His company is like a warm fire, gradually dispelling the haze in Jiang Ciyou's heart.
They had walked together on the beach, the sand under their feet was soft and warm, the waves came one after another, gently lapping the shore. Lu Jingchen would playfully pick up a shell, put it in Jiang Ciyou's palm, and say, "This is a gift from the sea to you, just like you are a gift from fate to me." Jiang Ciyou held the shell in his hand, and a long-lost smile bloomed on his face. That smile was so beautiful under the sunlight that it made Lu Jingchen's heart beat.
There was also the trip to the ancient town, with winding bluestone roads, old houses and blooming flowers on both sides. They held hands and shuttled between the alleys, feeling the tranquility and beauty of the years. When Lu Jingchen passed by a small dessert shop, he would run in and buy a portion of Jiang Ciyou's favorite cake, watching her taste it with satisfaction, his eyes full of pampering.
However, happy times are always short-lived. The huge check, like a sudden storm, ruthlessly broke their happiness. Jiang Ciyou recalled the hurt and desperate look in Lu Jingchen's eyes when she left, and her heart felt like being hit by a heavy hammer, the pain was unbearable. She knew very well how cruel and unforgivable her behavior was.
At this moment, facing Lu Jingchen's sincere confession, Jiang Ciyou's emotions surged like a tide. She longed to throw herself into Lu Jingchen's arms again and regain the lost happiness. She missed his gentleness, his smile, and every moment they had spent together. However, fear followed her like a shadow. She was afraid that this was just Lu Jingchen's momentary impulse, and that there would be more hardships and setbacks waiting for them in the future. She didn't know if she had enough courage and strength to face the unknown.
Jiang Ciyou's eyes revealed a hint of tenderness and hesitation. Her lips trembled slightly, as if she wanted to say something, but was troubled by the inner entanglement. She looked at Lu Jingchen with complex emotions in her eyes, which were the regret for the past, the confusion about the present, and the longing and fear for the future. Her heart was struggling fiercely. On the one hand, she was deeply attached to Lu Jingchen, and on the other hand, she was worried about being hurt again. Every thought was like a sharp blade, leaving marks on her heart.
She recalled every little thing she had experienced with her husband, and the vows that she had thought would last forever, but now they had all turned into nothing. She had been hurt too much in her relationship, and she didn't know if she could withstand another blow of failure. The appearance of Lu Jingchen made her feel the warmth of love again, but this warmth made her so afraid of losing it.
Jiang Ciyou raised her hand slightly, as if she wanted to touch Lu Jingchen's face, but stopped in mid-air. Her heart was shouting and struggling, and she didn't know how to choose. Should she bravely follow her heart, or choose to retreat to avoid being hurt? This decision was too difficult and too heavy for her. She felt as if she was standing on the edge of a cliff. If she took a wrong step, she might be doomed.
At this time, the music in the banquet hall was still melodious, and the people around were still dancing with laughter, but Jiang Ciyou seemed to be in another world. In her world, there was only Lu Jingchen's affectionate eyes and her inner entanglement and struggle. She didn't know how her silence would make Lu Jingchen feel. She only knew that she had fallen into the quagmire of emotions and couldn't extricate herself.
She thought of the little things that Lu Jingchen had done for her. That time when she encountered setbacks at work and was in a bad mood, Lu Jingchen quietly accompanied her, told her jokes, made her happy, and helped her analyze the problem and come up with solutions. He was always so careful and considerate, making Jiang Ciyou feel a sense of being cared for like never before.
Another time, they went to see a romantic fireworks show together. When the gorgeous fireworks bloomed in the night sky, Lu Jingchen gently embraced Jiang Ciyou in his arms and whispered in her ear: "I hope our love will be as colorful as these fireworks." At that moment, Jiang Ciyou really thought they would always be happy like this.
However, fate always likes to play tricks on people. Jiang Ciyou's departure changed everything. She didn't know how Lu Jingchen spent the days after she left, but from his eyes now, she could feel his pain and longing. She began to hate her original impulsiveness and selfishness. If she could do it again, she didn't know if she would make the same choice.
Jiang Ciyou's eyes fell on Lu Jingchen's face again. She saw the expectation and nervousness in his eyes. She knew that her decision would change the fate of both of them. She took a deep breath and tried to calm herself down, but she couldn't hide her inner panic. She wanted to speak, but found that her throat was dry and she couldn't make a sound.
She silently asked herself in her heart: "Can I really believe in love again? Can I really let go of the pain of the past and start over with Lu Jingchen?" This question kept echoing in her mind, but there was no answer. She felt like a ship lost in the vast ocean, not knowing where to go.
Lu Jingchen still looked at her quietly, waiting for her response. His eyes were full of love and patience, as if he would respect Jiang Ciyou no matter what decision she made. This silent support touched Jiang Ciyou even more. She knew that Lu Jingchen was a man worthy of her lifelong trust, but the fear in her heart prevented her from taking this step easily.
Jiang Ciyou's heart was swaying back and forth between love and fear. Her emotions were like turbulent waves, one after another. She didn't know when this inner storm would subside, nor did she know what choice she would make in the end. She only knew that at this moment, she was standing at an important crossroads in her life, facing a choice about her fate.
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