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Chapter 315 Making a Decision
Jiang Ciyou sat at the desk with a notebook open in front of her, on which were scribbled some notes about the pros and cons of her husband and Lu Jingchen, as well as her own inner feelings.
She had been thinking alone in this room for a long time, from day to night. The lights in the room were dim and quiet, with only the sound of her turning papers and the tip of her pen scratching across the paper.
She recalled the good times she and her husband had.
It was a sunny spring day. They were walking in the park. Cherry blossoms were falling like snow. Her husband gently held her hand, his eyes full of love.
On quiet nights, they would sit in the rocking chairs on the balcony, share each other's interesting experiences of the day, and look forward to their future life.
Those memories played in her mind like a movie. Every smile and every hug were once the most precious moments in her life.
However, the betrayal on the wedding night was like an insurmountable gap between these beautiful memories.
She could not forget the despair of that night. The pain of being abandoned followed her like a shadow. Whenever she wanted to get closer to the memory of her husband, the pain would pull her back to reality.
Thinking of Lu Jingchen again, he is always full of energy and enthusiasm.
When they went on vacation to the beach together, Lu Jingchen ran on the beach like a child, then suddenly stopped and said to her seriously: "Ciyou, I feel extremely happy every moment with you."
There was a sincere light in his eyes that made her heart flutter.
They had quarreled before, and those fierce words had hurt each other's hearts, but after every quarrel, Lu Jingchen would take the initiative to admit his mistakes and try his best to make her happy.
He would cook a sumptuous dinner for her. Even though he was not very good at cooking, his thoughtfulness made her feel extremely warm.
Jiang Ciyou knew very well that her husband's return brought too much uncertainty.
Although his promise sounded nice, she was no longer the innocent girl she once was.
She understands how difficult it is to rebuild trust once it has been broken.
She was worried that if she chose her husband again, he would betray her again one day in the future.
Although Lu Jingchen is young and energetic and full of love for her, their relationship also faces many practical problems.
For example, she hasn't fully understood Lu Jingchen's identity and background. Will their future be interfered with by his family or other aspects?
She thought back to her own upbringing.
Since childhood, she grew up in a loving family, and the love and support between her parents made her full of beautiful yearning for love.
In her values, loyalty and trust are the cornerstones of love.
Her husband's betrayal was not only a personal injury to her, but also a blow to the values she had always upheld.
Her life goal was to build a happy family with her husband, support each other in their careers, and go through every stage of life together.
But now, this goal has become unclear because of her husband's betrayal.
After being with Lu Jingchen, she began to rethink her life goals. She found that she could also pursue career success and realize her own value independently, instead of relying solely on a romantic relationship.
Inspired by a psychologist, she realized that what she really desired was a stable and respectful love relationship.
Her husband's previous betrayal showed that he did not fully respect her feelings, and although Lu Jingchen was immature in some aspects, his respect and love for her were obvious.
She wants to be loved, not the kind of love based on interests or momentary impulse, but a deep and lasting love that can stand the test of time.
At the same time, she also longs to be respected and treated as an equal individual in a relationship, rather than being ignored or harmed at will.
Jiang Ciyou began to think about her relationship with her husband. If she chose to start over with her husband, she didn't know if she could really let go of the hurt in the past.
She was terrified of falling into that painful cycle again, of her life once again being shrouded in uncertainty.
She didn't want to live in fear of her husband betraying her again all her life. That was not the life she wanted.
Moreover, she was not sure whether her husband returned because he truly loved her or for other reasons, such as he encountered setbacks outside and remembered her kindness.
As for Lu Jingchen, she saw his growth and changes.
From the image of the gigolo she kept at the beginning to someone who can provide support and encouragement in her life.
He accompanied her in learning business knowledge, and when she invested in stocks and real estate, he was always there to listen carefully to her ideas and give her his advice.
He is no longer the man who only knows how to have fun, but is working hard to grow into a partner who can stand shoulder to shoulder with her.
The three years they spent together were filled with laughter and tears, but these experiences made them understand each other better.
Jiang Ciyou knew very well that if they chose Lu Jingchen, they might face many challenges.
Lu Jingchen's family background is an unknown, and perhaps his family will have different views on their relationship.
Moreover, their relationship had been damaged by her husband's return, and this damage would take time to repair.
However, she is willing to face these challenges with Lu Jingchen.
Because she believed that Lu Jingchen's love for her was real, they had common goals and ideals, they could work hard together in their careers and build a happy family of their own.
She thought back to the last time she spent time with Lu Jingchen. It was a drizzling evening, and they were in a quiet coffee shop.
Lu Jingchen looked into her eyes and said seriously: "Ciyou, I know I may not be the most perfect person, but I am willing to become better for you. No matter what happens, I will always be by your side."
His hand gently held hers, his palm was warm and strong, and at that moment, she felt an unprecedented sense of security.
Jiang Ciyou also considers her independence and self-reliance. She doesn't want to lose herself because of love, and she hopes to maintain her independence in a romantic relationship.
In the process of getting along with Lu Jingchen, she found that she could do this. They supported each other but did not rely too much on each other.
She can continue to pursue her career dreams, and Lu Jingchen will respect her choice and support her.
After some deep thinking and reflection, Jiang Ciyou finally made up his mind.
She picked up a pen and wrote down her decision in her notebook: to completely break off relations with her husband and choose to be with Lu Jingchen.
Although this decision was full of risks, she believed it was the right path for her to be happy.
She began to write a letter to her husband. The letter paper looked exceptionally white under the light, and her pen moved slowly across the paper.
"My dear, by the time you read this letter, I have already made my decision.
I know you came back to make up for your past mistakes, but the rift between us is too deep for me to forgive and forget easily.
The betrayal on our wedding night was a huge blow to me. It not only destroyed our relationship, but also made me lose confidence in our future.
I was deeply conflicted when you came back because we had so many good memories together.
Those memories are a part of my life that I won’t erase easily.
However, memories cannot represent the present and the future.
What I need is someone who can give me a sense of security, respect me, and always be by my side.
You said you would mend your ways and spend the rest of your life making up for your mistakes.
I believe you may be sincere, but I can no longer trust you as wholeheartedly as I once did.
The trust between us has collapsed and it is so difficult to rebuild it.
Moreover, I found that I have changed. I am no longer the girl who relies solely on love. I have my own career and my own ideals. I need a partner who can walk forward with me.
I hope you can respect my decision.
I know this may be a harsh decision for you, but it is the choice I made after careful consideration.
I hope you can live a good life and find your own happiness."
After Jiang Ciyou finished writing the letter, he breathed a sigh of relief.
She knew the decision would change her life, but she was ready for it.
She believed that her future with Lu Jingchen was full of hope, and that they could create a happy and fulfilling life together.
She put the letter into the envelope, sealed it, and put it aside.
She looked at the night outside the window, her heart full of anticipation for the future.
She knew that from this moment on, she would bid farewell to the pain and entanglement of the past and move towards a new beginning.
She began to imagine her future life with Lu Jingchen.
They will greet the first ray of sunshine together in the morning, work hard for their careers together, and sleep in each other's arms at night.
They will face the difficulties and challenges in life together, support each other and encourage each other.
A smile unconsciously appeared on the corner of her mouth, a smile full of confidence in the future.
She knew that although there might be storms ahead, as long as they walked hand in hand, they would be able to get through it.
She thought of her parents again, and she believed that if they knew her decision, they would support her.
Her parents have always hoped that she would be happy, and now she has finally found her own direction of happiness.
She decided to find Lu Jingchen tomorrow, tell him her decision, and then plan their future with him.
Jiang Ciyou stood up and paced around the room, feeling both excited and nervous.
She was excited because she was about to start a new life, but she was nervous because she didn't know how Lu Jingchen would react.
She knew that Lu Jingchen had always cared about her, but she was still worried that her decision would bring him too much surprise or pressure.
She began to organize her thoughts and think about what to say when she saw Lu Jingchen tomorrow.
She wanted to tell him all her thoughts, including her hesitations and her thought process, to let him know how hard this decision was.
She hoped that they could be honest with each other and there would be no more concealment and suspicion in their future life.
She walked to her closet and picked out clothes to wear tomorrow.
She wanted to appear in front of Lu Jingchen with a brand new image, representing her new beginning.
She chose a white dress, which was the dress that Lu Jingchen once said he liked her wearing very much.
She looked at herself in the mirror, her eyes full of determination.
She knew that from now on, she had to bravely pursue her own happiness and no longer be bound by the past.
Jiang Ciyou sat back at the desk, opened her notebook, and began to write down her and Lu Jingchen's future plans.
Her first thought was about their career development.
She hopes they can continue to explore more in the business field, leverage their respective strengths, and make more investments and collaborations.
She wanted to learn more business knowledge with Lu Jingchen, participate in various business activities, and enhance their visibility and influence in the business world.
In terms of family building, she hopes to have a warm home.
She imagined them choosing furniture together, decorating the rooms, filling their home with the memories they shared.
She wants a loving family environment so that when she has children in the future, she can provide a good environment for them to grow up.
She also hopes they can regularly take time out to spend time with their family and spend holidays and vacations together.
Travel plans are also part of her consideration. She wants to go to more places with Lu Jingchen and experience different cultures and scenery.
She wants to go to the ancient towns in Europe to feel the tranquility and romance there; go to the savannahs in Africa to watch the migration of wild animals; go to the tropical rainforests in South America to explore the mysterious natural world.
She believes that these travel experiences will deepen their relationship and broaden their horizons.
As she wrote, the smile on her face became brighter and brighter. She seemed to have seen the beautiful life she and Lu Jingchen would have in the future.
She knew that this decision was an important turning point in her life, and she must seize this opportunity to create her own happy life.
Jiang Ciyou was busy in the room, sorting out her things and putting away some souvenirs related to her husband.
She put these things in a box and put them at the bottom of her closet.
She wanted to put all these memories behind her and not let them affect her emotions anymore.
She wants to greet Lu Jingchen and their future with a brand new attitude.
She began to think about how to deal with some of the common property and interpersonal relationships between her and her husband.
She knew this might be a complicated issue, but she believed she could handle it properly.
She didn't want to have too many entanglements with her husband because of these things. She hoped to end this relationship cleanly and then devote herself to her new life with Lu Jingchen.
Jiang Ciyou's cell phone suddenly rang. It was a call from one of her friends.
A friend asked her about her relationship decision over the phone.
Jiang Ciyou told her that she had made a decision and chose to be with Lu Jingchen.
The friend on the other end of the phone was happy for her and encouraged her to bravely pursue her own happiness.
Her friends’ words made Jiang Ciyou more determined. She felt very relieved to know that her choice was recognized by her friends.
After hanging up the phone, Jiang Ciyou sat back at her desk and continued to perfect her and Lu Jingchen's future plans.
She was thinking, what if Lu Jingchen had different ideas?
She felt that they needed to communicate well, understand each other, and find a solution that satisfied both parties.
She believes that as long as there is love and respect between them, there is no problem that cannot be solved.
It was late at night and Jiang Ciyou felt a little tired, but her heart was full of excitement.
She knew that tomorrow would be a new beginning, and she was looking forward to meeting Lu Jingchen and their future together.
She took a last look at the letter to her husband that she had laid aside, then turned off the light and lay down on the bed.
She closed her eyes, and Lu Jingchen's smile appeared in her mind. She gradually fell asleep in such beautiful imagination.