Are you, as meal replacement users, ready for the consequences?

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Ningzi patted Mu's little head and opened the door.

This is her good older sister.

I feel like I'm in absolutely the best shape right now!

The room was pitch black, and the moment my feet left my little leather shoes, a surge of joy welled up inside me.

"Hiss, Mu said, medicine?"

"Ah."

Mu, who was following behind Ning, seemed to remember something. She leaned against the door frame for a long time without going inside, and finally spoke softly.

"I've already taken my medicine."

"When?"

"I came this morning."

"You'll need to eat again tonight."

"Okay, okay, I'll take my medicine obediently."

With her back to Wakaba Mutsu, Toyokawa Ningko expertly poured out a pill.

She realized that this thing was actually really useful.

It made her feel like she was herself again.

It allowed her to experience the beauty of being detached from this world.

But is this really a good thing? My condition is unstable; my sister will worry, won't she?

"Mu, could you get me a bottle of water? It's in the fridge."

"Um…"

If Ye Mu did as she was told, she always cooperated if Ningzi's suggestions were reasonable.

"Xiao Mu, do you think I should take my medicine?"

Toyokawa Ningko chose to pass the question on to Wakaba Mutsu, knowing it was irresponsible and that Mutsu would say something.

But she just wanted others to affirm her decision.

"I want to eat."

In the living room, the lights suddenly filled the room as the switch was turned on, and Ningzi sat on the sofa staring at the medicine bottle.

It looks like the bottle has lost some color?

Never mind, it doesn't matter.

Chapter 58. To think that what is normal is a ridiculous self-deception.

"Medical condition, testing."

Toyokawa Ningko stood in the kitchen, observing Wakaba Mutsumi on the sofa outside through the transparent one-way glass.

Mu sat there quietly, which was good and safe.

Just sit there. I won't hurt you there, nor will I be attracted to you or harm myself because of my illness.

Ningzi turned around and turned on the faucet. Mu had helped replace the faucet in the kitchen. From the leaky faucet to the shiny silver one, it was all thanks to Mu.

The water flowed gently against the sink, making a steady, muffled sound. Ningzi plugged the drain and filled a basin with about half a basin of water.

I wanted to wash something, but found that the only thing I could wash was my hands.

Ningzi dipped her hands into the water, feeling the coolness coming from all directions.

What's next? What will drown next?

After surveying the kitchen, Ningzi's eyes fell on the water glass she had just used to drink her medicine.

"That's it."

I roughly shoved the glass into the sink, and it quickly filled with water... A few bubbles rose to the surface, and then there was no more sound.

"..."

"The water cup didn't call for help, which means it hasn't developed schizophrenia yet."

Current situation: fairly good.

"The next step is..."

Ningzi lifted her skirt and looked herself up and down, inside and out.

"My body is intact, at least I think it is intact, and my perception of my own condition seems to be good."

The situation is better than expected.

Ningzi jumped up and down excitedly, but as her body slowly fell, her beautiful brows furrowed slightly.

His emotions are volatile; he wouldn't normally be so happy about something like this.

"My emotions are a bit chaotic, even uncontrollably shifting, which is a failure and indicates that my condition is starting to worsen."

Is it a consequence of overuse of medication, or is there a problem with the medication itself?

Or maybe both.

Ningzi then dipped her hands into the pool. As her hands touched the cup, she felt powerless, as if her hands no longer belonged to her and were about to return to nature.

The next step is to confirm the lemon.

I haven't seen Ningzi in a long time; she hasn't shown up since my condition improved.

If this idiot shows up, then things must be really bad.

Ningzi pulled her wet hands out of the water and hesitantly hovered her head above the pool.

Try it, drown.

Anyway, there just happens to be a puddle of water here, and I have a head, isn't that a perfect coincidence?

With her eyes tightly closed, Ningzi felt fear even when the tip of her nose touched the water.

It seems... I no longer have the courage to casually take my own life as I used to.

He had previously been so indifferent to his own life, adopting the motto "It's just a worthless life, take it or leave it," and when he ended it all, he didn't even consider others...

Think carefully: when you first tried to drown yourself, did you really care about anyone else? Did you consider how your deceased mother would feel if she knew her daughter had died?

The second time he took a whole bottle of sleeping pills, it seems he also forgot about Xiangzi, Mu, and Deng? It seems he just wanted to end his boring life quickly and commit suicide with Lixi…

Ningzi's blue hair hung down naturally and floated on the water's surface. Her head remained in this position, frozen on the water's surface, motionless.

It was only during this experimental attempt to die that I was truly afraid.

My mind is filled with Xiangzi and everyone else; I'll miss Xiaodeng's smile and Hailing's gentleness...

There's also Riki's cutesy antics and Aine's adorable fangs...

"It seems like I don't really want to die."

Is this a good thing? It might not be a bad thing for everyone else, but what about for myself?

"I reserve my opinion, but it can be considered a plus in terms of mental state."

Without further hesitation, Ningzi submerged her head in the pool, closing her eyes tightly and deliberately holding her breath.

She longed for the feeling of suffocation to arrive, and equally anticipated whether Ningzi would appear.

After all, as one's own personality, and one that doesn't want to leave, it would definitely emerge under these circumstances.

Underwater, she felt darkness and a deep gloom; every second was torture. Her body was warning Ningzi in various ways: "Pull your head out of the water! Are you some kind of trash?"

Ningzi, enduring various discomforts, responded to the torso: I won't listen to you, you noob.

Sixty…Sixty-one…Sixty-two…

During the half-minute she was drowning, she wanted to escape the suffering she had brought upon herself, but in order to find the answer in her heart... this suffering was necessary.

"Wow…"

breathe--

breathe--

In the end, just before she was about to drown, Ningzi chose to escape from the pool.

"It worked... Hmm... Lemon didn't come, but I'm still normal, and I'll never see Lemon again..."

It's normal. All the symptoms... haven't appeared yet. I'm still a normal person right now.

More accurately, he was a somewhat abnormal humanoid.

Ningzi slumped to the ground, inhaling large amounts of fresh air into her lungs while trying her best not to make any noise.

She even used all her strength to open the refrigerator door, deliberately letting the miscellaneous fish outside, including Wakaba Mutsu, hear.

The self-hypnosis I've been doing these past few days is ridiculous. I've never considered myself a normal human being, but out of concern for reassuring others, I've been forcing myself to believe it:

Toyokawa Ningko is a normal human being.

However, the various things that happened today cannot be ignored, and I have never returned to normal.

Leaving aside the piano ring and the piano lamp, the abnormal feelings he has for Aine alone are a manifestation of a pathological condition. He projects his feelings for the lamp and other people onto Aine, distorts his memories of Aine, deliberately lies to her, suddenly wants to have physical contact with her, and desires to have an improper relationship with her...

I've always been sick, and it's ridiculous to pretend I'm normal just because my condition has slightly improved. You're just a nobody.

Just like that saying I saw today, "Alcohol doesn't turn people into useless people; it just teaches us that people are inherently useless."

Medication and accidents won't turn a mentally ill person into a normal one. These factors will only teach the poor idiots with abnormal minds that they should be in a mental hospital and stay there for the rest of their lives.

"But even if I'm sick, I don't really want to go to a mental hospital."

Ningzi dried the water droplets from her hair and took a bento box from the refrigerator.

She came out of the kitchen.

This bento box was supposed to be her dinner today.

"Sister Mu, are you hungry? There's something delicious to eat."

Evidence proving she went out needs to be destroyed.

Mu will obediently do whatever you say.

Ch59. Toyokawa Neko doesn't believe it.

"Xiao Xiang, how was your day? Were you thinking about Ningzi while you were working?"

"That's right, today is another day I miss Ningzi terribly."

"Really? If it's fake, I'll hate you!"

"You can't hate your older sister, really, you idiot."

Xiangzi sat on the edge of the bed, preparing his school uniform for tomorrow by the light of the small bedside lamp.

Why turn on the light? Because Ningzi absolutely cannot sleep in a dark environment, otherwise she will be too scared to fall asleep.

In more severe cases, it can even lead to a state of trembling all over and becoming unresponsive to calls.

Yes, it's all because of something that happened when she was a child. After that incident, Ningzi has never been able to fall asleep alone in the dark.

Ningzi huddled in the corner, hugging her knees, leaving most of the bed for Xiangzi.

Mu left early today. After eating the boxed lunch she had heated up herself, she said goodbye with peace of mind.

She even took her own trash with her, she really... I'm so moved.

Mu asked Ningzi if her hair was wet, Mu did ask, but Ningzi could continue to weave lies without any guilt.

If you can fool Mu once, you can fool her a hundred times. Continuing to fool her will actually help maintain their relationship.

How to fool them? It's simple. Just say that you got food or soy sauce stuck in your hair and washed it in the kitchen first.

Such an excuse is so easy to come up with, and it's also very difficult to prove that it's not true, isn't it?

Mu left half an hour before her sister came home, and after that, she had some boring time alone and sweet moments with her sister.

Ningzi tugged at Xiangzi's nightgown, enjoying the exquisite feel of the silk pajamas.

This is my older sister, whom I brought from home.