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Chapter 138 True Thoughts
chapter 138
Meng Youcheng immediately sensed that something was wrong.
Fu Lian's face was as white as paper, his lips were instantly dry, his eyes were tired, and he was panting heavily, as if he had been poisoned.
Meng Youcheng looked up at Mo Beizhen in front of him. "You poisoned him?"
The woman calmly sheathed her sword, her eyes cold. "I've only rendered him incapacitated. He'll be staying here for 15 days. I'm the commander here, and I have to consider the well-being of the residents."
Fu Lian was panting heavily, his eyes slightly closed, his expression pained.
Meng Youcheng hesitated before saying, "But he..."
Mo Beizhen looked up at Meng Youcheng, "Even the Major General can't guarantee he won't harm the people here, right? Even if he won't, as a commander-in-chief, I must always think of the people here. I hope you understand. Also, the poison I just gave him will not only render him incapacitated but also leave him mentally confused. There's no other way..."
"I've been searching for a long time, but poison that only causes loss of mobility won't work on him. However, Major General, you can rest assured. I know your purpose here. He won't die. The poison will naturally disappear in 15 days."
Meng Youcheng didn't know what to say, so he simply nodded and said, "Okay."
Mo Beizhen stopped arguing, turned around and left, saying, "Come in."
Meng Youcheng helped Fu Lian up. "Can you walk by yourself?"
The boy was extremely weak. He shook his head and swallowed hard. "I have no strength at all. I can't even stand up straight. I feel terrible all over and can't even breathe properly."
Fu Lian leaned against Meng Youcheng's chest, looked up at him again, and asked weakly, "What kind of poison is this? Why does it hurt so much? It feels like... I'm going to die?"
Seeing this, Xu Guo walked over. "Major General, shall I carry him inside?"
Fu Lian immediately resisted and gently pushed him away, "I don't... I don't want you to carry me, I want... Major General..."
Meng Youcheng was stunned. "They were kind enough to carry you, how could you...?!"
Before he could finish speaking, Xu Guo forcefully stepped forward. "You had no choice. Do you think I wanted to carry you? If it weren't for the fact that you, Major General, have been traveling for so many days without rest, who would want to carry you...?"
"I don't want you, I don't want you...!"
Fu Lian resisted with all his might, his mind hazy as he said, "You...you're not a good person. You want me dead all the time. I don't want you to carry me. I hate you. I want the Major General. I like him. He's good to me. I want him...!"
Xu Guo couldn't do anything to him either. Although the guy was very weak, he was still quite strong.
The lieutenant looked up at Meng Youcheng helplessly. "Major General, how about I go inside and find a carriage to drag him in?"
Meng Youcheng let out a heavy sigh.
To be honest, he didn't really want to carry Fu Lian. This guy was really heavy; he could feel it just by leaning against him. And those damn biceps of his were huge. When he stood next to him, he looked like a skinny dog.
Moreover, he is so much taller than me, I estimate he is 1.85 meters tall, how could I possibly carry him?
Ugh……
Meng Youcheng helped the boy up a little. "I'll carry you there, okay?"
"don't want……"
Fu Lian weakly shook his head, "I don't want to carry you..."
Meng Youcheng was extremely patient and asked, "So, what do you want?"
Xu Guo, who was standing next to him, was so angry that he kept scratching his head.
"hug……"
Fu Lian painfully opened one eye, glanced up at Meng Youcheng, and said, "Princess carry..."
Unable to contain her anger any longer, Xu Guo stepped forward and shoved him, yelling, "Don't you dare push your luck!"
"pain……"
Fu Lian's breath was extremely weak at this moment. He looked up at Meng Youcheng again and said, "Major General, his push hurts my hand so much."
Xu Guo: "Me?!"
Meng Youcheng sighed heavily again, reached out and hugged his legs, granting his wish with a princess carry.
Fu Lian's expression remained pained, and he did not resist.
Meng Youcheng carried him into the city, saying, "Sleep when you're tired."
……
Mo Beizhen only arranged two rooms for them. According to the woman, Fu Lian was very weak and not very bright, so he needed someone to take care of him, otherwise something really might happen.
Xu Guo certainly didn't want to take care of him, but if she didn't, the Major General she cared about would have to suffer again.
He offered to take care of it...
Fu Lian refused, and kept saying that he was a bad person, saying that as long as the Major General was good to him, he was a good person and he liked him.
Upon hearing this, Xu Guo was immediately furious and prepared to launch into a tirade.
Mo Beizhen interrupted him, turning to look at Meng Youcheng, "Then I'll have to trouble you, Mr. Meng."
Faced with the woman's words, Meng Youcheng really didn't know what to say, so he could only nod and say, "It's okay."
Fu Lian, who was standing next to him, immediately came over and wrapped his arm around his arm. "Major General, you're tired."
Mo Beizhen stood up. "It's getting late, everyone should go back to your rooms and rest."
……
Meng Youcheng then carried the heavy young man back to his room in a princess carry.
Xu Guo wanted to go in with him, but Meng Youcheng declined, saying it was getting late and they had been traveling for two days, so they should get some rest.
He closed the door, placed Fu Lian on the bed, and, his mouth dry, prepared to pour himself a glass of water. Just then, the young man grabbed his hand. "Don't go, Major General, don't leave me."
Meng Youcheng sat on the edge of the bed and patted his hand. "I'm not leaving. I'm just going to get some water..."
"No, stay with me."
Fu Lian's face grew paler and paler, his expression one of utter exhaustion, and his breathing became rapid.
According to Mo Beizhen, he's not thinking clearly right now and might blurt out some classic quotes or reveal some embarrassing past events. This is a good thing, Mo Beizhen said, because it might allow him to explore some unknown past events.
This will help to better eliminate all mutants.
Meng Youcheng didn't move. "Okay, I won't leave."
Fu Lian slightly opened his eyes, his eyes filled with tears. This was the first time Meng Youcheng had seen him with this expression.
A moment later, a tear rolled down his cheek; this was the first time Meng Youcheng had ever seen him cry.
Meng Youcheng took a piece of paper from the side and wiped it.
"Am I... going to die?"
Meng Youcheng thought for a moment, "This is poisoning. You might feel unwell for a few days, but it won't be life-threatening..."
"I don't want to die. I'm only in my early twenties, and there are so many things I haven't done yet. Why are you doing this to me?"
Meng Youcheng was stunned. Only at this moment did he realize that what the boy was talking about might be going to the A4 region.
"Just because I'm a mutant, does that mean I deserve to die? But I've never killed anyone. I've saved so many people, why me of all people? I hate myself so much. The future I worked so hard to build has been completely destroyed because of this..."
"I'm the vice-general of the demon-slaying team. If I work a little harder, maybe I can become a major general and give my sister a bright future. But why me?!"
"There are so many people in the world, why me? Why me to become a mutant? I hate mutants, I really hate them... But why me? Tell me, what did I do wrong? I didn't do anything wrong. I just wanted to protect my country, protect my sister, and follow my beliefs. Why me?"
Faced with a barrage of questions from the boy, Meng Youcheng was unable to provide an answer.
Because in any world, it seems that God can't stand happy people. He just wants to keep tormenting them, keep hitting them, and watching them live in pain seems to be a kind of pleasure for him.
Yes, why specifically Fu Lian?
Like, why myself?
Of all the people in the world, it just so happens that my sister got such a serious illness, it just so happens that I was poor and destitute, it just so happens that I was most helpless, and it just so happens that I was all alone.
Fu Lian cried for a long time. "I have a younger sister. She is a very lovely child. We have depended on each other for many, many years. I wanted to give her a good life, so I worked hard and joined the demon-slaying team. This is my dream. I want to protect my country and become a great hero that everyone admires, not like now, where everyone scorns me..."
"I thought my future would be bright, and my sister would be happy. I didn't dare to pursue love because no one could accept me having a child in my life. So I could only cautiously observe other people's love lives. I hoped that lovers would eventually be together, because that was something I could never reach. So I just hoped that others could be happy..."
"Later, the virus invaded, and I became the first mutant. My Major General, Mr. Huang, repeatedly showed favoritism and protected me, and eventually even released me, all because of me..."
The boy's voice choked with emotion, "He was executed by the government, and in his last moments, he told me to live well."
As soon as she finished speaking, tears streamed down her face. "But I've become like this, how can I face anyone to live? This is the version of myself I hate most. I can never be a hero again, I can only be scorned by others..."
"I really want to die, but for my sister, I can endure it. I just want her to live a good life. Even if I die, it doesn't matter, really..."
Hearing his words, Meng Youcheng felt as if he had been punched hard in the heart.
The similar experiences are like another version of myself. I was also doing this for my sister. Someone had confessed their feelings for me, but I resisted because I had a child to support. I didn't force them to stay because my sister is my everything.
His heart tightened, and he felt an overwhelming sense of unease...
I, too, was once like a teenager, constantly running around for other people's love, and angrily cursing the person who didn't cherish love, even resorting to moral blackmail, because I couldn't experience love myself, so I hoped they could cherish it.
"Major General..."
Fu Lian suddenly reached out a hand and grabbed him. "I love you, I really love you so much, but I don't dare to say it. I can only pretend I don't love you because I know we are worlds apart and destined not to be together. But I really can't control my heart. He keeps telling me, 'I love you.'"